This is what I felt during my life group on February 1st. Holy Spirit showed me an image after the life group.
Why do I am carrying more than I can handle?
How much more can I walk? For how long?
I struggle to take step after step after step.
Will this burden ever lift off me?
I keep tossing it with a light throw.
It’s very easy to pick it back up
Do I like to put myself down?
Am I addicted to the feeling I get when I get weighted down?
To feel press, stress, squeezed, and fatigue.
Like auto-pilot, you get used to going through the routine.
It’s all I know. And I’m tired of it being my norm for me.
I can’t believe I can compare myself when my head is close to the ground.
You struggle to accept your past, to misconfigure to be present, and to be unable to move forward to your future.
When I carry such a heavy load on my shoulders?
I can’t walk at ease anymore.
I know life has its moments, but it wasn’t supposed to feel like this
Why carry something I wasn’t supposed to carry
How do I balance where I carry from to where I am going?
Who would lift a burden so heavy that I can’t stand to see myself
I’m ashamed of how huge it has become that it feels like a part of my body
Attached and anchored so deeply that pulling won’t do any good
Buried deep within the hidden cracks of my soul
I need something bigger than you, and I
Why continue to carry the pain, guilt, shame, the embarrassment
Because Im afraid to commit to being uncomfortable, to work, to fight at something worth value
Underneath is a gem so rare, raw, undefined
That the world can’t see its beauty until you’re ready
Are you ready to discover who you are?
Are you ready to step into the light?
You have been in the darkest valley for too long.
Are you ready to unlock your potential? The key is waiting on you
Becoming who you are meant to be can be unsettling
You’re not used to seeing yourself healed
Fixed with gold in between the flaws
Being molded into something beautiful
Walk in it; own it. Flaws and all
Where you have, who you have hurt, and what hurt you do not determine who you will become
Only One person can
He has called you dearly loved and anointed
So drop the weights where they are ad energetically cast all your shame, guilt, and hurt on Him.
It’s time we step into this new season together
Let’s go after better together!